Untitle Poem...About Twin Flames

Here's a poem I wrote last year. Hope you enjoy it. *grin*

A long time ago in the darkness of my mind, you dwelled

A bright light to guard me from the nightmares

A figment to some, non-existence to others, my soul

You were my protector, my love, my other half

Even when I locked you away, in a box you did not stay

Your refusal to be bound and hid away showed me your love

A startled moment when you were there,

My knight to halt my hand and stay my motions

You wrapped me in your arms and whispered you lived

To search for you I did, but nothing I found
Alone in the world I traveled, half a heart and soul

Only surviving was I doing, living I was not

Murmurs of something that could be, haunted me

Pressing the limits of my mortality, I did to end the pain

Yet you still held and protected me

For death would not even have me

I created a character of you, to save my sanity

But still you haunted my dreams

You were not real in the world I lived, just in my mind

To stave off the demons of terrors

The child I was imagined you to fight my battles

Because I was tired

My protector and comforter, but real you were not

Heart sick and my soul ached,

I moved through this life I called mine, but you weren’t there

A dual life I led, straddling two worlds, I dwelled
Was I losing my mind? Because I could feel you, yet you weren’t there

Never in the light of day did you kiss me, only in the dark

Am I going crazy? Because I knew you, yet I couldn’t find you

I would sleep and find you there, hear your voice, feel your touch, I was whole

But I would awake to an emptiness I was used too, friends with and you were gone

Again I locked you away, I had to, to live, to move forward

Again you rebelled, your freedom you demanded

My compliance, you coaxed, I gave you my dreams and nights to roam

And to claim me as yours

But my days were lonely, filled with a sadness I was accustomed to

My burden, my punishment

Songs from my favorite band tormented me,

But I wed another, this was my life

A connection so profound I knew it was real,

But fear kept me locked in a mold

Do what was right and give everyone my all,

But ignore what I wanted and needed to survive

The terror ran deep, a sense of mourning, I wished to die

But again death laughed in my face

This was my hell, my punishment for transgressions I do not recall,

I accept as my due

For I am not worthy to have you

You are only given what the gods know you can handle

Yet the agony tears through me, but release is not in the making for me

Because I denied you, your claiming of me

This is my life, my hell, my due

I let you comfort me when I was beaten and broken but only for a minute

I deserved the pain, I wanted to drown out the agony of being empty,

Of not being accepted

Once again Lady Death laughed at my pleas

Are you staying her hand, my love?

Do you enjoy my suffering?

Do you wish for more?

Again I forged ahead, rebuilding myself and turning colder

I knew you lived, because I could feel your life force, but I didn’t care

Beaten into submission, forced to redefine myself,

I ignored you, enraged I was now

You did not exist! I was no longer searching for you,

Loneliness was in my soul

A companion no one could take away, for they feared me

And I didn’t mind

Years passed by, my sadness deep in my bones

No smile lit my eyes, only graced my lips

I was an actress, a pretender that was perfect

Love my children, I did, gave my life for them, I did,

A promise made not to be broken

I traded my life and happiness for theirs

The innocents in my quest for my soul

Again you broke the confines I locked around you

Tormenting me day and night, living dreams

You upped the ante and gave me no time to re-group and rebuild my walls

The assault you conducted tore at my mind and emotions,

I had finally lost touch with reality

The future was where you existed, another life we would have together,

It eased the pain

I wasn’t crazy, just feeling a connection to my next life

That was acceptable

Then a single conversation set into motion events that caress me now

I feel you and know you, you live, are real in this life

The emptiness is gone as is the sadness

A complete wholeness fills the once emptiness I lived with all my life

Now I am the one in confines,

For the choices I made and sacrifices I allowed

I fight daily what my mind says and my soul demands

Neither are happy

But I will straddle the two as long as you allow

I tried to keep you away, knowing the pain I would inflict,

But you did not listen or hear

Alpha is who you are, exactly the way I saw you,

The way I knew you to be

Not with others, only with me

Because I am yours

You don’t let me step back and shut you out

You won’t let me protect you, as you protect me

You take a beating and let me live

Am I really worth the pain and agony you feel?

I cannot stop who I have been forever

But you laugh and accept the fight I put up

Even the unplanned ones

You stand there, my rock, my hunter, my alpha, my soul

Stepping back, you refuse,

No matter how hard I push, you stay in front of me

My shield, my heart, my lover, my other half

You promise not to let me fall,

That you will catch me and hold me tight

I can hear your heart pound against my ear,

You do live, just like you whispered

I am whole now and accepted unconditionally

This emotion so profound ‘love’ just does not fit

Because the feeling is so much more

You are a part of me, you are me

There is no me without you and you without me

We are one in the same

We are one

I am yours and you are mine

Only the physical branding is left

Years ago I married my soul, it was right

I will hold you tight and fight to keep you

Even as I battle myself to set you free

We are a matched pair, you and I,

The joker and his lady

That is us

It won’t be easy, the tears and pain will be there

But for as long as I breathe in this life I belong to you,

Body, heart and soul

You are my true mate, soul mate, life mate

Matched by the gods, divinely united

Forever….

Into eternity and beyond….

Twin Flames…Twin Souls…